So I often find myself wishing I were a different sort of mom than I am. While I don’t think I am a bad mother, there are things I wish I were better about but I find it hard to get myself motivated to change.
Things like the television. I am awful about letting Widget watch t.v. Mornings are the worst. Sometimes we get up, flip on the television and the next thing I know it is lunch time and the dumb thing has been on all morning. Granted Widget doesn’t just sit and zone, she is usually bouncing around the living room or playing a few of the toys in the living room but it is on, and it is on A LOT. Mornings are hard for me because I have been really, really tired lately (well, really for the last year or so), so I struggle to get going, which in turn makes things pretty lazy in the mornings around here.
Or cooking. I don’t really cook. I like to eat yummy healthy meals but getting there is a whole other business. I do go in spurts with cooking, and I do find myself cooking for in the fall/winter than the summer, probably because I like to make chili and beef tips and noodles. I’m lucky that T doesn’t seem to mind being the “head chef” around here, though it does mean that we often don’t eat dinner until close to 7 PM with his work schedule.
Or getting out and taking Widget to the farmer’s market or on nature walks or the park. Granted, the weather has not been suitable for this type of activity lately. We’ve had lots of rain and cold.
I have this idea of what I want Widget’s (and our other children’s) childhood to be like and it doesn’t look like it does right now. I feel like we are too tied into the computerized, televised, overstimulated world and we don’t just turn off the computer or the t.v. I am the biggest culprit of this because of how much time I spend on the computer (hello facebook, adoption forums, blogs, etc!).
I know I need to change my habits first, in order to change Widget’s habits but I’m not very good at changing…



