Seeking God Knows What

Since I’m not sure who will read this, I thought I’d share a brief synopsis of who I am.

I am an adoptive mother of one. My nickname for my 14-month-old daughter is Widget, so Widget she will be on here. She came to our family through a domestic open adoption. We see her birthmom (L) and L’s dad (CJ), stepmom (R) and stepsister (S), about 4-6 times per year.

I have been married for 8 1/2 years to T, who turns 30 this year. I’ll be 29 so I still have a year until the dreaded loss of my twenties!

I am a survivor of childhood cancer. I had Wilms’ Tumor at the age of 5 1/2 (a kidney tumor found mostly in children under the age of 5) and the treatment from it left me infertile, thus leading us to the adoption of our daughter.

I struggle with depression and anxiety- some of it stemming from being a cancer survivor, some of it simply biological in nature becasue my mother is in a constant battle with both as well.

I just renewed (or perhaps really finally defined and accepted) a faith and belief in God and Christ. It is amazing already the changes I am finding in myself as I begin to discover what a life with God/Christ at the center of it can become.