Seeking God Knows What

If only the timing were right and money was not an issue…

Today in my e-mail inbox was an e-mail from the woman who was our adoption coordinator for Widget’s adoption. She has since left the agency we used and is working as a family law lawyer and for an agency that primarily does China adoptions but has had several calls lately from expectant moms considering adoption and she, along with a former pregnancy counselor from the agency we used, are helping these moms consider their options. They are developing a crisis pregnancy part of the agency that focuses on primarily helping moms-to-be get the resources they need to parent but if the moms want to consider adoption, they will help them with that aspect as well.

She was e-mailing us, along with other families, because she had a mom-to-be who wants to look at profiles this Wednesday and is due in April. Apparently, she felt we would be a good fit if we were interested. Since they do not have an infant adoption program in place, they have no waiting families and would like to gather some for her to look at. Fees really weren’t too bad, less than Widget’s adoption fees. But we aren’t in a place yet where we could even contemplate figuring out how to pay for it- we are still working on paying off Widget’s fees. Plus, we planned to wait a while before plunging into the adoption rollercoaster again.

And of course now I shall be thinking about that mom and wondering what she decided to do and praying for her that she is getting the support she needs while she makes this huge, life-altering decision (both ways- parenting or placing).

I have to admit that it makes me sad to have to say no, not right now. We waited so long to be parents and to have this come along so soon after….