Archive for May, 2006
Addiction
May 18, 2006“Hi, I’m Erin and I’m addicted to the internet”
Okay, a few things in particular on the internet: my e-mail, my blog, the other blogs I read, the forums I browse, my blog stats. Maybe I’m just becoming OCD since I check them over and over and over again as if they are going to change in the ten minutes since I checked them previously.
If I’m at work, I check my e-mail via my cell phone probably once every half-hour (granted, I do it partially because I’m so bored) even if I’m not expecting any e-mail.
Pathetic, I know.
Key indicator that I have no life nor apparently the ability to get one.
Testimony
May 18, 2006So as part of the membership process at the church we are considering joining (we’re almost there…), we each have to write our testimony. Yeah, um, I’m not exactly sure what to say or how to write it or any of that. I mean I’ve put some of it down here on this blog but it is mostly scattered convictions. There isn’t a coherent whole yet (not that I couldn’t use a coherent whole to reflect on).
Actually testifying as to my beliefs isn’t something that is very common in my background. I can recite the Nicene Creed with the best of them. I memorized it as a kid because I said it over and over and over again in the Episcopal church. It doesn’t take but a moment in an Episcopal church service for the entire service to come back to me, including the musical responses (although they do vary between churches), communion preparation, etc. But having all of that memorized never made me sit down and look at my faith.
I believe in God and Jesus’ death and resurrection but didn’t actually commit living my life with respect to that until just over 6 months ago.
But I’m still not sure how to write it…
The joys of sleep aids
May 18, 2006The ambien cr worked great for me sleeping and I did wake up alright. However, I can totally tell my alertness and reaction time are incredibly dulled. Whew, apparently I can’t type either as I have had to correct nearly every word this time due to fingers missing the right keys…
Bummer, I’m missing work and Natalie has gone off to the grandparents anyway! Probably not the greatest for our financial stuff but I’m just so terribly sad to not have to stare at that computer screen (oh, wait, I’ll probably stare at this one but that’s okay, I can do it in my pajamas!)
Bored
May 15, 2006I’m bored at work, completely and utterly bored. Granted, this was supposed to be an 8 week project that has dragged into, now, 8 months and will probably continue unendingly.
Part of the problem is the backwards way of doing things at the company I work for. And I knew this coming into this job because, well, I worked for them before. I don’t know why I thought I could handle it this time. Now, I feel trapped because I said I would do this project and well, they even changed my status from temp to regular part-time.
I left early today because I couldn’t take it anymore. I’m tired of doing the same work over and over. Literally, the same work because every time I think we are done with a section, they change some detail of the product I’m creating “quote masters” for or the layout or what they want to include, which means having to change all of them and that isn’t a small quantity because not only do I create one master for projects done in the US, I create 3 other versions of it for various international groups.
And no, this is not helping my transition…
I’m still waiting for the wellbutrin to “kick in”, if it ever does.
Sinking
May 14, 20062 AM edit
This song could have been written by me a year ago. I’m still learning not to say: “I don’t need you, I don’t think I need you” because I do need Him and His forever healing.
And in my eyes, the Y in you should be capitalized but I copied as written in the cd cover.
“Sinking”
Jars of Clay
It’s not my problem anymore
You see it never really was
So you can stop caring as you call it
And I’ll be fine right here
You see that I can play a pretty convincing role
So I don’t need you, I don’t think I need you
But you see through my forever lies
And you are not believing
And I see in your forever eyes
And you are forever healing
You can’t hear what I’m not saying
And I can hold out long enough
Treading water I keep from sinking
I’m not one for reaching
You see that I can play a pretty convincing role
So I don’t need you, I don’t think I need you
But you see through my forever lies
And you are not believing
And I see in your forever eyes
And you are forever healing
You see that I can play a pretty convincing role
So I don’t need you, I don’t think I need you
But you see through my forever lies
And you are not believing
And I see in your forever eyes
And you are forever healing
But you see through my forever lies
And you are not believing
And I see in your forever eyes
And you are forever healing
Super Troopers
May 13, 2006I have to ask…
If anyone knows what the deal is with the movie “Super Troopers“, I want to know.
I swear any time this movie is on, T has to watch it even if he just watched it.
