Seeking God Knows What

So awhile back, I wrote about how we had gotten a phone call from our church wanting to know if we were ready to become members. This week we received a letter asking us the same thing. This time, though, the letter said we needed to notify her by September 1 because they are having planning a “Harvest Sunday” in October, so if we are ready, they want us to be a part of that.

Here’s my “dilemma”- I’m ready but I don’t know that T is. You have to provide a testimony/statement of faith and I told T that he has to really believe what he writes, not just write something for my sake. And he hasn’t said a word about how he feels either way, even though I’ve tried to talk to him about it. He probably wonders what good is it. Yeah, we go to church nearly every Sunday now, and I dragged him to Alpha. But I don’t know that there has been a perceptible change in me for him to see how accepting Christ has been good for me, particularly since my relationship with the person that helped me get there got so muddled and him having to deal with my emotional self while I work through that.

I know he has to figure this out on his own and I really do want him to believe it in his heart.  I wish I knew how to help him, other than praying for him.  I suggested reading the New Testament but he doesn’t think he would understand any of it.  He said he needed an “Idiot’s Guide to Reading the Bible”.

I’d like us to do this as a family but I don’t know that I want to wait forever to become a member because it might be years until he “gets it”.