Seeking God Knows What

I managed to walk 5 times between appointments.  So I had an extra day in there but really who’s counting but me?

Other than giving me a half-hour alone, I’m not sure I’m any fonder of the activity than I was at the beginning.

Hmmm… I should have made this the 5th post for today…

In the mail today, I received a credit card offer. It was the most interesting offer I’ve ever had. I have been prequalified for $300.00 with a variable interest rate of 19.75%. However, according to the offer, the credit line would be reduced by certain fees that will be billed directly to the account. Those fees include an annual fee of $150.00 and an account opening fee of $29.00 plus an account maintenance fee of $6.50 per month assessed once I made my first purchase. To top that off, I would need to send them my first minimum payment of $20.00 before I could activate the card. A bit fishy, if you ask me
Oh, and also in today’s mail I discovered that I can take Chinese Watercolor Bamboo Painting if I want through our local community ed.  A bit like Underwater Basket Weaving, wouldn’t you say?

T sent me the updated on-call schedule for him for the rest of this year because the two co-workers that work this territory with him quit at essentially the same time. I’m so thrilled because apparently it doesn’t matter that he asked for vacation in May for the week of Thanksgiving since not only do we have Widget’s birthday that week, his dad turns 60 and his mom wants to do some sort of deal for that. And guess what, he’s on call that week. He’s supposed to have vacation the end of next week too but I’m sure he’ll have to work now. Apparently, even though he is given a decent amount of vacation, he’s not supposed to use it.

And Widget keeps putting her finger in her left ear and saying “hurt”. I’m hoping that this is just part of her new phase saying “owie” or “hurts” over everything and not an ear infection. She hasn’t seemed sick except for some yucky diapers the last day or two. I suppose if she keeps it up, we’ll have to get it checked out.

I’m ready for today to be over, although appointment #6 is tomorrow morning. This is the point at which I usually quit. Heh heh.

I had a couple of conversations with T yesterday. One was about this which essentially confirmed my feeling that he wasn’t ready at all. In fact, I’m not sure he’s any further ahead than he was a year ago. He says he doesn’t understand how you can believe/have faith in something that is completely intangible.

The other conversation was about our relationship. At one point, I asked T why he was still here. First, he paused and then he said, “Because you were so bound and determined to be with me, it must have rubbed off on me.” And later, he said because he had made a promise. Now I know he was just trying to lighten the mood and it used be kind of a joke between us about how “determined” I was at 16 to date him, but that answer seemed to confirm something I have always worried about- that I “pushed” him into all of this and he didn’t know how to get out without hurting me.

Sigh.

I think it will be good for us to have a couple sessions together with #5.

I just got off the phone with my older sister, M, who was calling to tell me that our youngest sister wants to come home with our parents. Apparently yesterday, my dad asked M to call AM and try to convince her that she needs to stay for at least the semester. So she did. AM calls my dad at their hotel this morning and tells him that M said she could go home, get a job and then go to a closer school in January, which while M did say that no one would be disappointed in her if she did that, it was only a small part of the conversation.

My poor dad stuck having to deal with AM and with my mother, who I’m sure is saying we should just take her home.

Sigh. My parents left early this morning to take my baby sister to college. I can’t quite believe that she’s 18 or even ready for college, especially considering how “flaky” she’s been about getting prepared to go. Example: she did NOT read her health card well enough to realize that she needed a TB test in the last 6 months until the girl (a friend from high school) who is her roommate asked yesterday if she got one . AM announces this to my parents at 6 PM last night. Fortunately, the dr’s office was open until 8 and they said she could walk-in and get it done, then have it read down in Indiana where she is going to school. Apparently the entire process has been like this with lost papers, forms not completed or left out. Completely the opposite of me and I was only moving into a dorm in the same town I lived in. I double-checked everything as I so did not want to be the student they said couldn’t register (in front of everyone else in line) because I didn’t have everything done.

I’m sure she’ll be fine but it does make me feel rather old! I can remember when she was born and M and I said when AM is 18, I’ll be 29 and M will be 32. It seemed so far away. But here it is happening.

Who knows what my parents are going to do with just themselves at home. I’m not even sure I want to think about that, what with my mother’s “history” and their rather volatile relationship.

Anyway, I’m praying for safe travels for them and a good freshman year for her. We may not see her until Thanksgiving, unless T and I make a trip down to see M and her family in TN (it can be on the way if you take a certain route) before then.