Archive for December, 2006

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New babies

December 8, 2006

I am awake, too awake because I haven’t taken my seroquel yet. I often forget and then it is 11:30 or so before I think, “why on earth am I still awake? Oh, yeah. Duh.”

Widget and I got to visit with two new babies today. Well, one baby is ten days old and the other is ten months but he’s new to us since he just came home from Guatemala. The moms are sisters the same ages as M and I. We all moved to Holland the same summer and were new kids together, plus they lived in our neighborhood, so we became friends. 16 years later, we still keep in touch. J is M’s age and she and her husband are the ones who adopted their son, little J, from Guatemala. A is my age and Baby H is their second daughter, their first (little A) is 4 months older than Widget. The older girls had to do a little bit of work on “sharing”- mostly Widget stealing toys away from little A or little J. You’d think we would be getting somewhere with sharing because we spend a lot of time with her cousin AE and we still see Rosie on occasion, but nope, sharing to her means MINE!

Baby H seemed so little, although she was 8 lbs and 20 inches when she was born. You forget quite quickly how tiny new babies are. I held her for awhile, which so DID NOT help the “baby lust” I have. I promised I’d look through Widget’s newborn clothing for anything I can loan to A since her girls were born in opposite seasons.

And it was wonderful, really wonderful to see J with Little J. She looked like a pro and things are going along well with their adjustment to being mommy/daddy plus Little J’s adjustment to them seems to be on track. Their whole process ended up being about 18 months, which is longer than they were told originally (I think it was 10-12 months then) but Little J is most definitely meant to be theirs. Oddly enough, he even bears a slight similarity to J, despite them being from entirely different ethnic backgrounds. I think if we did any sort of international adoption, Guatemala would be top on our list despite its ups, downs and unknowns and even with the possible complications from Hague Convention Treaty on Intercountry Adoption. For some reason, any time I think about us doing an international adoption, I think about Guatemala over anywhere else.

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December 5, 2006

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Mortgage, schmortgage

December 4, 2006

We got this letter today from the mortgage company saying that they couldn’t give us payment assistance. It looks like a form letter and I suspect it is just an attempt to get us to make our missing November payment.

But it leads me to think we are going to end up going through with foreclosure on our house. It isn’t that I’m all that upset about “losing” our house- there’s no equity and we’ve mostly forked out money for interest and taxes- we’ll find a place to live, we aren’t going to be homeless. We can always live with my in-laws for a while if we need to. Oh joy! Doesn’t that sound like fun? ;) I would just rather not have to deal with the hassle, phone calls, harrassment that is bound to come over it. That’s what makes me anxious.

I’m inclined to just turn off the phone and utilities, move out and leave the keys on the counter. Let them have it. We know we are in over our heads and we know we are going to have to accept the consequences.

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Home again, home again, jiggity jig

December 4, 2006

We made it back home.

I did not go to work today because Widget would not stop crying this morning, just this constant sad I’m tired cry. I’m pretty worn out too after dealing with constant contact from my family.

The trip was fairly good. We determined that the actual drive time is only about 8 hrs, although the trip tends to be about 9 1/2 to 10 hrs with our stops. Widget was awesome in the car both ways and only a little bit naughty while we were there, general two year old behavior.

I managed to not get too annoyed with my family members, mostly Saturday night after we went to this Toys for Tots benefit concert in Nashville with Keith Anderson. I’m not a fan of country music, neither is T. It did not help that the concert itself started at 10 PM and that was just the opening act. Staying out until 1 AM at the Wild Horse Saloon was really not my idea of fun but I went. Everyone got lit except T (who delegated himself designated driver) and me (because I just don’t find alcohol all that appealing and I don’t tolerate it very well). I determined that I do NOT like it when my mother drinks more than, say, a glass of wine or a beer. As T put it, she turns into an a** and it does not help her impulsivity at all. Apparently we are “no fun” because this isn’t our kettle of fish.

But it was very good to see K home!!!  He seems to be reacclimating fairly well, although he still has sensitive startle reflexes.  I thank God that he made it through with no injuries or any really serious scares in terms of his safety.  Now if we could only get the majority of our troops out….