Whine, whine
January 17, 2007Our friends- yes, the ones from this post and this post-have already sold their house. 6 weeks on the market before they got an offer. Granted, it is a smaller starter home and was listed for $25,000 less than ours is.
But still they get to have a baby (they had their first one before we adopted even though we started the process to have a family 4 years before they did, and she did have to have some assistance in conceiving both times) AND have no trouble selling their house.
STOMP! STOMP! WHINE! WHINE!
Not fair 
I know, who said life was fair? Besides I’m just reaping what I sowed.
On a side note, #5 and I had a discussion about her during my session with him yesterday, related to what happened/how I felt after going out to dinner and bowling with our “circle of friends”, of which they are a part, this past Saturday (yes, we went bowling. Yes, I suck at bowling 
). Based upon what I told him, he said she sounds “toxic” and “unhealthy” for me and he thinks there is some “families of origin” stuff going on with her, where unless she seeks out her own help, I’m always going to bump up against those issues as I have for the last thirteen years. Here’s what I don’t get about my relationship with her. I see her or talk to her and I end up with this f***d set of feelings (currently anger and jealousy) but when I make a conscious decision not to see her, I miss her and think about her a lot. What the hell is wrong with me????
I had that with my mother. I would have contact with her and it messed me up/disturbed me and yet when I broke off all contact with her I went through a grieving process. Now that I passed through that process I reap the benefits of not having a toxic person in my life.
Sounds like there is nothing wrong with you, it’s very normal.