I decided that this year I am joining National Blog Posting Month, aka NaBloPoMo, which means post about some thing every single day.
It is also National Adoption Awareness Month, so expect some posts about adoption.
And Widget turns 3 in 3 weeks from today!!
I shall try not to bore with too much inanity or insanity in my attempts at posting every day 
I need some inspiration for blog posts.
Every time I post inane things I start wondering why anyone is even reading
So if you have a suggestion, please comment.
Or just comment and say hi! I see lots of repeat visitors but I have no idea who you all are 
I’m getting my first wisdom tooth.
My gum is all swollen and sore. It hurts. A LOT.
But seriously? At age 30? Getting a tooth?
What’s up with that?
So I didn’t want to go to work today.
I called in with a migraine. Now I do have a headache (one of the dull annoying will-probably-last-all-day type) but it isn’t exactly a migraine.
Of course, by the end of today I’ll probably wish I had gone to work instead because we are working on using the potty with Widget, so I’m likely to spend much of the day taking her to the bathroom or cleaning up accidents.
Can I just say potty training is a pain in the butt?
I added a new button to my sidebar 
Goodsearch is an online search engine powered by Yahoo! which donates money to a specified charity. I have preset the link for the SAMFund which is the non-profit group for survivors of childhood/young adult cancers that has given me a grant the last couple of years to help cover my prescription costs. Every search you do using the Goodsearch site, you help donate money to the group.
Goodsearch also has created network of online retailers who will donate a percentage of purchases to charity. So for those of you who are online shoppers, if you hit the Goodsearch site first and then click on their links to some of the many retailers (including major stores like Target, Amazon, Gap, Barnes & Noble, Macy’s, Old Navy, Apple, Circuit City), then you can “feel good” about your online purchases since you are donating to charity too
Cool, huh?
since I talked about adoption related things on here.
I’ve been reading around as usual but, well, I have not been responding to what has been said anywhere. I still believe a lot about adoption needs to change but I guess I don’t really have any “fight” in me about it right now.
I’m having a moment where I want to JUST be my daughter’s mother. I know I’m not her only mother and trust me, that is something I will never forget. Without L, there would be no Widget. I recognize and acknowledge that, even if I don’t make the fact that she was adopted the center of Widget’s life, in fact, it is only a very perimeter thing right now. She knows L is a friend, a special friend and can pick her out in pictures. We’ve tried to talk to her about how she was in L’s tummy, using my sister’s recent pregnancy and our friend’s pregnancies as examples, and then how she came home with us because L chose us to be her mommy and daddy, even though she loves her very much. But I’m not sure how much of that she gets, particularly since we don’t see or hear from L very much.
To be honest, I’m feeling a bit frustrated by the lack of any sort of contact with L. I send pictures, e-mail, birthday present, and what not but I never hear anything back. I can’t call her because her cell phone is shut off. The only number I have is her dad’s cell phone and the last time I tried it, it was off and it was just the standard “you have reached X number, please leave a message”, so I’m not even sure if I have the right number. I assume I still have the right e-mail address for L since nothing gets returned to me but still I have no idea what she thinks or wants from this relationship, if anything. So, I’m trying to reconcile my idea of what this relationship would be with what reality is and at the moment, it is leaving me feeling a bit annoyed.
In fact, I’m trying not to be as ticked about it as I would be if it were one of our family or friends because I know she could just be going through a difficult time and not wanting the actual contact of a visit or phone call. I’m trying to just keep staying in touch so she knows the “door is always open” but it is hard to remain dedicated to it when Widget isn’t getting anything in return from it right now.
Last night T did some “on-the-side” work for his former boss, who wanted to move his office to another room meaning the wiring for their system had to be moved. T agreed to move the system’s wiring for a fee and estimated it would take him 2 hours.
When he rolled in 4 hours later, I sleepily asked him what took him so long. He rolled his eyes and said in typical fashion for his old boss, he was too cheap to get someone to move the phone lines, the fax line, and some other lines and wanted T to do them as well. Not only that, everyone in the restaurant left T there (not that he doesn’t know his way around since he worked there for 8 years) finishing up.
I told him to tack some extra to the bill.
T asked why.
I said it is an ass charge for his former boss being an ass as usual.
That’s it.
No more clinic visits scheduled.
I am now outside the range of years they expect late effects to develop. I can now officially be tagged as “no longer at risk of additional late effects from treatment for childhood Wilms’ Tumor”, otherwise known as “discharged from clinic”.
Wow.
Weird.
I’ve decided I need to celebrate, so now we are going out to dinner
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