So long, November!
Hello, December!
And all the busyness that goes with it

So long, November!
Hello, December!
And all the busyness that goes with it

Bing Crosby’s White Christmas cd.
Just listening to it makes me smile

We joined a small group at our church, which refers to them as Life Groups because they are supposed to be about doing life together not just bible study.
Well, tonight, we did life with them.
We shared about my mother, her stay in the hospital, telling my dad she wanted to separate.
We shared that we were going to file for bankruptcy (most likely).
We shared about the myriad of emotions surrounding visits with L and her family.
And each of them took turns sharing about things going on in their lives: new babies on the way, the adoption process one couple is going through to adopt from Ethiopia, jobs, deaths, and so on.
At first, I wasn’t sure about being in a life group. We have friends and family close, did we really need this? Some of them already knew each other before the group formed, would we feel like outsiders? Neither T nor I feel extremely confident about sharing our faith in person (here, sure but face-to-face, not so much!), would we be able to open up in a small group?
But tonight, I realized how important this group is becoming to us and I am extremely thankful for it!

Tonight I am going to bore you with an evaluation of our appointment with the bankruptcy attorney last week.
First of all, he was a very nice guy. He seemed very honest about his desire to help people avoid bankruptcy if he can. If not, he works with them through the whole process and makes sure that they leave with a good budget plan for the future.
Secondly, we do qualify for chapter 7 based on the new median income test. I think there is one other “means test” we have to qualify for based on our expenditures and income to file.
Thirdly, based on our general estimates for debt, household expenses and income, he seemed to think we probably would have to file.
Since we talked to him, we have spent the last week gathering the required documents to bring to our second appointment, doing the required bankruptcy credit counseling online -a big joke that cost me $50 for our required certificates- didn’t even copy the information I entered into our paperwork accurately (I’ve decided we are going to use Dave Ramsey’s Bankruptcy Pre-Discharge Program for that part, hopefully it will be worth it!) and just analyzing our expenditures on household, groceries, dining, clothing and so on.
What we discovered is T’s income, which is steady and very secure (Thank God!), is more than enough to cover our household expenses. So that means what I make pays for child care and debt reduction. Now, that brought up the question of whether I should work full-time to “save” us from bankruptcy. However, after evaluation, we determined what held true last year holds true this year, my earning potential (at least if I were to stay at the same job just full-time, the easiest option) is not enough to offset the additional costs of full-time childcare, work expenses and add enough income to cover what we REALLY need to pay off debt.
Truth be told, I’ve been living in dream world about how much money we need to live without increasing our debt. These last few months, we have truly watched our dollars at the grocery store, going out to eat, clothing etc. well, other than Spam-a-lot tickets and the reality is we cannot live on the money I had planned out. We’ve managed to skate along the last few months with various methods- with a 5% interest rate till the balance is paid off check (bad choice), because T did an outside computer job for his old boss and because we had a referral to our apartment complex meaning we got a 50% credit on our rent for the month (both of these don’t have a lot of prospects for future money).

We had a visit with L, her dad, stepmom & youngest sister on Saturday. Widget was very excited to go and see L, though it took a few minutes for her to warm up since we were meeting at their place instead of ours. The visit was good overall. We have never had any worries about boundaries. They respect us as Widget’s mom & dad and I do not feel at all threatened by having a relationship with them.
So why am I bringing this up, if all seems so good?
Because when it was time to go, I could see the tears in L’s stepmom’s and her dad’s eyes. They were trying desperately not to let us see them teary-eyed but both T and I noticed. And my heart broke for them again, like the day L relinquished her rights forever.
Even though I know we are not keeping Widget from them, they do not get to see her as much as their other grandchildren. In fact, L was the “odd man” out from her sisters by placing Widget in an adoption, because they all single parented their children (two are now married).
If it is this hard for me to have them say goddbye over and over, how hard must it be for them?

I missed a day!
I woke up this morning and thought…
I never posted yesterday!
Oh well

I know, I know.
I keep throwing in these last minute posts about not much just to post every day for NaBloPoMo.
However, I’m storing up for some serious posts ahead in this last week.
Be prepared

I hope you all had a wonderful and blessed Thanksgiving
And those of you crazy enough to get up and wait outside at some of those stores for Black Friday sales, I wish you luck and prayers that you don’t get trampled. As for me, I’d rather sleep in