Missing church again!
March 16, 2008We seem to be on track to miss church again this week. Last week, we overslept thanks to the time change. The week before, well, we just didn’t go. This week I’m feeling dizzy and sleepy as I’m trying to change antidepressants (zoloft to prozac) to see if some side effect issues I’ve been having will go away plus T did something to his back early last week, is doped up on valium and high doses of ibuprofen, and decided he does not want to sit for an hour through church.
I’ll be honest and say I don’t mind too much as our not-favorite-long-winded teaching associate has been preaching the last few weeks instead of our pastor. I’m still sorting through my thoughts on the spiritual gifts assessment (mine is not done, nor is T’s) and I have a strong feeling that if I go and hear him preach, I may run screaming from the congregation. I am most definitely NOT on the same page as he is about all things theological. Plus, I have a hunch that if I go today and they do nothing to recognize the significance of Palm Sunday, it will compound everything.
All this complaining is probably making some of you think, “Why on earth doesn’t she find another church, if she’s so unhappy here?” I’m really not that unhappy. It lacks in some areas (i.e. mainly recognizing the church calendar and being very non-liturgical) and I have some theological conflicts, which I expect I’d discover in any church I attend, but for the most part, I do feel very strongly that, as a church, it is doing a lot of things right. Plus when our pastor preaches, I almost always get a lot from his sermons. Not sure what I’ll do if he decides to move on, or when he decides to retire 
Next week is Easter, so we will be there despite inner turmoil, drug changes and back pain!
“I’m really not that unhappy. It lacks in some areas… but for the most part, I do feel very strongly that, as a church, it is doing a lot of things right.”
Whats funny is that I just came to the conclusion that no situation is going to be 100% ideal… ever. Once you’ve realized that something is not all you expected or wanted you can’t just get up and run. Unless it’s deplorable and hurting you more than helping. I think what is important is finding the best of you in those situations, using whatever is offered to build up yourself and see where it takes you. Ironically, I’m speaking about my job. But this post helped me to solidify some things. Thanks.