We are heading north for our annual 4th of July vacation. This year T managed to get Monday and Tuesday off plus they were closed today, so I am looking forward to having 5 whole days with him!
Maybe after this, the summer will slow down and I will actually get a chance to post more often. I still have a post brewing about being at the year mark waiting for baby#2.
See you all next week and have a great 4th of July!
I had a forced hiatus from the internet these last ten days or so, while we moved and then waited (and waited) for our internet/television to be installed. Good in the sense that most of the house is unpacked and I really just have pictures and whatnot to put up/away. This excludes the basement (and the garage- but that is really T’s domain). Hard because I felt very disconnected from everyone despite having a working phone and cell phone!
The move has gone well. We still have some home improvement work to do, and now after living here for a couple weeks, I am already dreaming about how we could expand the kitchen/dining area and add a half bath 
One of these days, I will take some pictures and show you the before and after. The before doesn’t look too terrible but the main work was in the fact that this was a home someone smoked in and it has taken A LOT of work to rid the house of most of the smell. Occasionally, we notice pockets of the smell, especially since this last week has been rainy and more humid.
Nothing is happening on the adoption front. We are one month shy of the one year of waiting mark. A blog post on that will be coming soon. Plus Heather of Production, Not Reproduction has a list of open adoption bloggers and wants to start a roundtable on different topics, so I have a post brewing about the first topic as well, though I’m a little behind on it since I was without internet.
I feel like this song Widget has on a Sandra Boynton book/cd set:
“We are very, very busy
And we’ve got a lot to do
And we haven’t got a minute
to explain it all to you!”
We closed on our new home April 29. I have spent much of the last two weeks doing remodeling with T’s parents. T has helped as much as he can but he has been very busy with work too.
We have to be out of our rental home by June 1st and we still have much to do at the new place. I’ve had to prioritize my list of things to be done to what HAS to be done before we move and what could wait.
Last week was Tulip Time. I did get Widget in her Dutch costume one day to take pictures with her cousins, A & W and we went to the big parade on Saturday but otherwise, we did not spend as much time at the festival as we usually do.
Thanks to a generous offer from my in-laws to be our “bank” for the next few years (until a regular bank will let us get a mortgage), T and I are buying a house! We did not ask or even hint about it at all, they just offered to do it when they saw what kinds of deals were out there, though we were limited to a certain dollar amount they felt comfortable with and will keep us right about where we are now for rent payments including property taxes and insurance.
The house itself is nothing exciting, just your basic 3 bedroom ranch. It is actually a foreclosure just around the corner from where we are renting but it is in great shape- only needs some painting and some serious cleaning, nothing major unless the inspection turns up something. But it will be ours
I’m so excited!!
We haven’t really been to church this year. T and I have been doing a lot of talking about our faith/beliefs and whether our church actually fits us, and the more we are talking, the more we are finding that we don’t think we are in the right church for us. There are a lot of things we do like but it is the fundamental theology of Calvinism, Christian Reformed,etc. that is bothering us. And the more I read up on it, the more I realize this.
So I think we are going to begin church seraching. Not sure where we are going to end up. There are a couple ELCA churches that we have considered trying- both are very small and that would be drastically different from where we are now. We have also talked about going back to our old church, though the service time is not exactly our favorite (8:45 AM! We barely make it out the door to 10:30 services as it is).
I do miss going to church on regular basis, so I need to get the ball rolling on looking
The last few days have been hard.
The meeting between A and Z and this other family had to be rescheduled, hopefully sometime next week. All of that is still so very up in the air and I’m tired of not knowing.
I remember the wait for Widget was hard, emotional, long but somehow, I had it in my head, that this time would be different. That because overall I’m in a better place emotionally, this kind of thing wouldn’t make me want to crawl in a hole and hide until we get the phone call that nextbaby is here.
And truthfully, I’m scared, because I am seeing in myself some of the things I do when I’m depressed.
Shaun the Sheep: The Bull
This is our new favorite series of videos for Widget
Today marks my 3 year blogaversary! Who knew I could keep blathering on a regular basis for that long? Heh 
Obviously, I’m not blathering as frequently as I used to but I think that is primarily due to the fact that I no longer have such great upheaval going on in my head that has to come out somewhere. It helps to have a good therapist. I imagine some of you reading this are laughing secretly (or not so secretly) at that comment. Honestly, I really don’t know that I could have made the progress I have made without #5. Since May, I have been seeing him once every 5-6 weeks, with the stipulation that I will call should I feel the need for an appointment sooner, but so far I have not needed to do that.
And I will admit I have started “censoring” myself when it comes to stuff I’m thinking about writing about. I have lost some of my anonymity, which isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but it does cause me to think twice in terms of what I’m going to write about and it has caused me to go backwards and password protect some previous posts.
I do suspect that as the adoption match progresses and it gets closer to April, I will have some things I want to sort out and, perhaps get some input on, via blogging. This second time through the adoption process has been very different for me emotionally. While I thought I had dealt with my feelings regarding my infertility the first time around, I know now that I really had not. Plus now we have the additional variable of Widget in our lives. This has already provided T & I with some serious discussion about how to handle her questions about the process, her own adoption story, as well as preparing her for the arrival of a sibling coupled with the simple fact that placement will be legal risk, at least if this match ends in placement.
Anyway, I can’t quite believe that it has been three years. Then again, when I started I had a fourteen-month-old running around and now I have a four-year-old!
We had a meeting today with a young couple who are considering making an adoption plan through our agency. They have “officially” picked us as the potential adoptive parents.
Baby is due April 21st and is a boy.
Please pray for us through the uncertainty of the next few months and for A & Z as they make a decision that will impact their lives no matter what they choose (parenting or placing).
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