Archive for the ‘This Life of Mine’ Category

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Picture Pages

September 9, 2008

I know everyone is more interested in seeing pictures than me blathering on about my life ;)

So here are some from our trip to Virginia (click on the pictures to open a larger version):

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Heading to Virginia

August 27, 2008

I just realized I haven’t posted anything in 10 days, nor did I put up pictures from the camping trip!  I still need to upload them to the computer from my camera.  Time seems to be getting away from me this summer.  This past weekend was packed full of activities- birthday parties, open house for preschool, amongst our usual stuff.  We also had some happenings on the adoption front but at this point, it looks nothing is going to come of it. 

Of course, now I have a million things to do as we are leaving on Friday morning for Virginia to visit my sister M and her family for a week.  My in-laws have one of those vacation timeshare units and we swapped it to have a place to stay near her, rather than packing us into her house, although it has been done before!

I’m excited because they live near Colonial Williamsburg and I have always wanted to visit there plus we haven’t seen them in a year.  Widget has been counting down the days on her specially made calendar until we go see her cousins. 

I’ll try to post while we are gone but if not, I will be sure to update when we get back!

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Camp-a-ree

August 17, 2008

First, a quick update to my previous post direct from the grandma (my aunt)

“Good news on Z!!   He was released from [hospital] this afternoon.  Because he was 6 weeks early, he had more problems than the drs.first thought but now …no infections, temp is up, jaundice is better.  :)
 
S and J met with the dr. today and the baby is to have no loud noises, very little holding, no visitors, and be bundled up like its the middle of winter.  He is to burn no extra calories than necessary, eat as much as possible and grow!  They decided that the circumcision and hep B shot should have been done later instead of day 3.  Those were just too much for him.  But it looks like things are on the mend.  He is just beautiful….did you know I’m his grandma?!
 
J and H (Z’s brothers) are now at home and very happy about that!
 
Thank you all for the many prayers and please keep them coming.  He has lots of growing to do!”

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That said, we had our first adventure camping with Widget this past weekend.  We went with most of our small group from church, which was fun and we had some great times bonding as a group.  Widget spent the entire time being wild with the other kids, all equally covered in dirt and grime, no matter how clean they started out the day.  We did leave Saturday night instead of Sunday morning- Widget plus camping equals not much fun sleeping.

A few things I note about camping:

1.  It is a lot of work to get ready to go when you haven’t been in 5 years, especially when you are bringing a small child.

2. After about 3 days/2 nights, I’m sick of dirt and campfire smoke, which means any future camping will have to be done only in short distances from home.  Good thing my favorite place to camp is the Platte River Campground roughly 2 hours north of here.  The few years we went camping as I was growing up, we mostly camped here and it is where T and I have done nearly all our camping since we were married.  Of course, I have LOVE northwestern Michigan, so I’m a bit biased :-P

3.  People have a lot of different ideas about what camping is.  We saw campsites with campers that had their air conditioning on full tilt and televisions going to tents and minimal gear. 

4.  I also prefer campgrounds with a little more seclusion per site than the one we were at.  It was nice and had fairly clean facilities but I felt like we were on top of the other campers. 

5.  Air mattresses are the best invention ever.  I didn’t have one as a kid but eliminating sleeping on the hard ground, totally worth it.

6.  I could never cut it doing true wilderness camping.  A couple of members of our group have done that including T but hearing them talk about it, definitely not up my alley!  I can do tents, I can do sleeping bags, I can handle bugs and dirt but I cannot do no toilets or even “rustic” toilets.

I’ll post some pictures once I upload them :-)

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Prayer Requests

August 13, 2008

I have a couple of prayer requests (both of which I learned today!)

1.  My cousin had a baby, Z, 5 weeks early on Friday 8-8-08.  I just found out today that he has been readmitted to the hospital to be treated for spinal meningitis.  I don’t know much more than that.  So please pray for him, my cousin and her family. 

2.  My baby sister went to the ER on Monday night because she had been very sick and in a lot of abdominal pain.  Turns out she had an ovarian cyst that burst and now has fluid in her abdomen.  She was well enough not to be admitted to the hospital but is still not feeling very well.  At least she is back here instead of 6 hours away where she spent most of the summer working! 

Thanks

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A Long Way

August 12, 2008

I had an appointment with #5 yesterday morning.  I’m seeing him about once a month now, give or take with vacations and whatnot this summer.

He had to write a letter to our SW for our homestudy stating how he feels about my progress, stability etc.  He showed me a copy of the letter (he’s also supposed to e-mail it to me but hasn’t yet) and we ended up spending much of the time discussing said progress.

And I really have come a long way in the last two years.  I can see how far I’ve come when I read through my blog archives.  I know how far I’ve come when I realize how well, for the most part, I’ve handled dealing with my parents and their divorce. 

Some of it has to do with less stress overall, having sorted out our finances.  But most of it has to do with finally working through the deep-seeded feelings I had from being a childhood cancer survivor and its resulting infertility.  I needed good counseling but I was terrified to get it.   Yes, there are things that happened as a result of NOT dealing with this issues I wish I could undo or redo differently but I think a lot of different pieces had to fall into place to land me with #5, who I was able to make the connection with to get through this stuff. 

My life is hundreds, no, thousands, of times better now.  It isn’t perfect but whose life is?  I feel blessed with what I have and look forward to what is to come.

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Fixed

August 10, 2008

Yay! My handy man computer husband has fixed my computer :-)

We have a lot going on the next few weeks but I’ve also got some posts I’m thinking through, so stay tuned ;-)

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Boo

August 6, 2008

My computer is broken.

Boo.

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I’m not ready for this

August 4, 2008

As I was helping Widget get settled down for the night, she asked me what it means to die. Now my grandma died this February and Widget was there for part of the visitation, although she didn’t pay much attention to it. So I think part of it is coming from that because she also asked me why the “second grandma” died.

But then she started asking me if she was going to die or if T and I were going to die. She knew it meant never “seeing” anyone again and she began to cry about not seeing us. It was heartbreaking. In fact, I’m all teary-eyed just thinking about it.

I know it is an age thing as well but, ugh, I’m not ready to have my sweet baby girl thinking about death and dying.  :-(

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Adopting Again: Talking to Widget

August 4, 2008

We’ve been talking about adoption with Widget ever since she was born.  Not so much as a focus of who she is but more along the lines of getting her comfortable with the concepts surrounding adoption.  I don’t know that she really “gets” who L is despite our pictures and visits but I think she understands more and more every time we talk about it.

Yesterday she was sitting at the table eating lunch and she looks at me and says,”I want my baby brother and sister to come from your tummy.”  Yes, she has been telling everyone she wants BOTH a baby brother and a baby sister, in fact, she informed our social worker of this during our home visit.  For a long time, while my sister was pregnant and our friend was pregnant, she talked about having a baby in her tummy but it wasn’t ready to come out, something I assumed came from seeing and hearing us talk about the babies on the way.  This is the first time she has expressed wanting her sibling to come from my tummy.

I explained to her that it doesn’t work that way for our family and just like she was in L’s tummy before she came to us, her baby brother or sister would be in another mommy’s tummy and then would join our family after he or she was born.  She seemed okay with this explanation but then today, she came running into me while I was changing the sheets on our bed and informed me that she saw L driving by in her car.  So I can only guess that it is on her mind.

I am a little worried about the legal risk aspect when we get placed since it could be 6-8 weeks or more before the hearing terminating parental rights.  I think we are not going to refer to the baby as her brother or sister until after rights are terminated and we are just going to tell her that we are taking care of the baby for awhile.  Keeping others from referring to the baby as her sibling might be a bit tricky but I’m hoping everyone will understand and follow our wishes when the time comes.

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Baby on the brain

August 2, 2008

I have baby on the brain.  Well, really it is what nextbaby will need on the brain.  I’m trying to plan it out so we don’t get stuck having to buy a bunch of stuff at the same time as pay LARGE sums of money for our adoption but my problem is I can’t make up my mind what to get in terms of car seat, stroller.

We got rid of the travel system (car seat/stroller) we had for Widget when we moved last year because we really thought we wouldn’t be able to adopt again until Widget was in school and it would have expired by then plus we didn’t have room to store at the apartment.  So a car seat is needed.   I want an infant car seat because it definitely came in handy last time, plus I have a convertible from Widget (well, my sister has it at the moment) to use when nextbaby grows out of the infant seat and it should still be good.  A Graco would work the best because I have a LiteRider stroller still in excellent shape, I could use to make it a small travel system.  In fact, I found a car seat that would work, even though they only sell it online at Target.

But then I am trying to decide if I want to get something like a Sit’n’stand Stroller because I KNOW there will be times when Widget will need to be in a stroller as well as the baby.  One is the link above and the other is a deluxe version which can make the second seat into a real seat, not just a “platform” seat. Now the dilemma that I’m having is that I like my stuff to coordinate- the deluxe version would match the car seat I have tentatively picked out to match my Literider stroller.  Plus I can make a Graco carseat work with the Baby Trend sit’n’stand because according to their website, it is compatible so that is all good.  But I don’t know that I need to spend the extra $40+ for the seat because I think Widget would be happy with the bench seat/standing platform.  Target doesn’t carry the standard sit’n’stand in any colors but grey which would NOT match the light brown carseat.  See my silliness?  I want the two to match.  If I go with a grey car seat, it won’t match the literider stroller, meaning I’ll be wanting another single stroller to match the car seat. 

So I’m trying to determine which is MORE likely to be used.  The single stroller travel system or the Sit’n'Stand with car seat. 

I suppose I don’t have to buy at Target but that is where we started a small registry and where 95% of the people who might want to buy nextbaby something would shop.  I know their return policy is icky if you don’t have a receipt.  But IT isn’t hard to get gift receipts and if it is on my registry, I’m not likely to return it unless I get a duplicate or it is damaged.

And I haven’t even gotten to trying to decide what kind of babywearing item I want.  Originally I wanted a pouch sling as I really liked the new native one MK had with W but I also like the mei tai style like one of the moms on my forums makes.

Plus I’m still thinking about cloth diapering.  That is FULL of decisions to make too!

I will say T and I made one decision.  We did decide to buy locally  (article about the store as they don’t have a website up yet) and we are now a proud owner of a maclaren triumph in chocolate brown.  We are all in love with it :-P